when the heart aches

i was creating this soundtrack.... it was like, you know, a list of songs that have parts of songs that mean something... that you give some special meaning or you believe they hold an answer, a key to feelings...

so i was assigning like referents to the songs, like, why they meant something for me.. and the list goes like this:

ani difranco - both hands: fear of feeling when things slip by you hand
damn yankees - high enough: regret after it slipped away
jewel - you were meant for me: miss you
lauryn hill - ex-factor: the hard times of being together
lisa loeb - leaving on a jet plane: being far away
portishead - only you: knowing me
semisonic - secret smile: you are mine
texas - say what you want: i feel the same about you
yellow card - only one: dont want to screw up
blind melon - mouthfull of cavities: when you are sad
los abandoned - como la flor: after you've left me
james blunt - you're beautiful: what would happen afterwards, when i'll see you on a bus
everything but the girl - missing you: yeah, i can be psycho too

BUT... in the end i realized that all i wanted to hear was this one:

high
by james blunt

Beautiful dawn - lights up the shore for me.
There is nothing else in the world,
I'd rather wake up and see (with you).
Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again.
Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night.
But now I'm high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn - melt with the stars again.
Do you remember the day when my journey began?
Will you remember the end (of time)?
Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you,
Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

*****

don't want to cry myself to sleep tonight..